Stupid Government!!!

[Madgirl151]

Hi
Im sorry in advance for the rant but im just so bummed right now, I have worked as a civil servant for nearly 4 years and have a disability which means i cant drive very far and when i put in a transfer originally my boss (who was a proper cow) did everything she could to ensure that i didnt get it whilst they were actually moving internally and by the time i got moved onto a different section in the same building, and my transfer was approved, internal transfers were just not happening. so i applied to uni and was accepted though if my transfer had gone through i would have returned to work and so when they said that my case was being sent to the dms ie being fired for being off sick, i thought well thats the choice made and started uni. financially it would have been a struggle but at least i knew where i stood!!!
Then i got a fone call after my 2nd week at uni saying they were not sending my case to the dms and were in fact getting my transfer pushed through but my pay again isnt sorted cos every department gives different info depending on who is spoken to and when i had a look at my payslip to see how much our payrise (and i use the term very loosely) was, especially when you consider how much everything has gone up, iv found that my pay went up 9p an hour which is only actually £14.48ish a month, i have since been told that we got a 1% payrise, i bet the pm and all the other top knobs got way more than that!!!!
What makes all this worse is that due to an error my old boss made, i got into financial difficulties and am now in way more debt than i should have been and now just feel like im just never gonna have enough to put away for my kids. i have to rob peter AND paul just to put food on the table for my kids most weeks, iv got some food put away and im trying to get other things but i have to do without stuff all the time in order to do so and the only time i get new clothes etc is from my mam and even then they are always on special or second hand, never full price.....
Sorry for my rant, i just feel really shitty just now and really lonely..
Thanks for readiing
Madgirl