Possibly the weirdest question I've ever asked

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Maybe It's because I'm a woman but I'm s hitting it.....The fear of having to constantly look over my shoulder, The fear of one of us not surviving. The fear of the unknown. I'm not scared of going without or having to comprimise, I am however in fear of the crazy dudes who want what little I will have. How much pressure do you think I am under? 3 kids and a fella to protect. I'm only 5 foot 2 and knocking on 40. Hardly a spring chicken